During my nightly (er, from now) run last night, a few of my most happiest moments from 2008 popped into my head.
Not to go all Pollyanna on you, but every so often, I'll get this overwhelming feeling of happiness (as we all do, hopefully), and when that happens, I bookmark it in my mind (or "add it to my favorites" if you still use Explorer). I bookmark it by taking note of everything around me, like where I am, what I'm doing, smells, sounds, tastes, etc, etc. My happiest moments aren't necessarily sparked by particular events, in fact, my happiest moment in 2007 happened while sitting on my couch in my family room, watching TV. I wasn't overwhelmingly happy because I was sitting on the couch watching Ugly Betty. I don't even know, exactly, why I was so stinkin' happy. Spiritually speaking, my life was probably going in the right direction at that moment (::buffing my halo::) and scientifically speaking, my body might have reacted by releasing positive neutrons in my brain (::adjusting my thick smarty-pants glasses::).
Of course, overwhelming happiness is fleeting, and it can even be replaced by overwhelming sadness. BUT, if I bookmark those moments of overwhelming happiness in my mind, then I can recall the feeling whenever I want (::attaching a giant Pollyanna bow to the ponytail at the nape of my neck::).
Crazy people call this "going to their happy place," BTW.
So, back to my point. When I was running last night, and I recalled that brief moment in Sept 2008--sitting on my balcony, cross-legged, striped PJ bottoms, notebook, iPod, Diet Coke, spider web, cockroach--I was suddenly determined to refocus my life in the direction I was going at that one overwhelmingly happy moment. Determined.
This is deep S, you gize. (and when I say S, I don't mean the S word, I mean "stuff") Anyway, deep S.